Allison Holker Reveals Shocking Allegations Of Abuse

Allison Holkeris shedding light on the darker side of the dance world, revealing the alleged abuse she endured as a teenager while navigating her passion for performance.

The professional dancer, best known for her appearances on “So You Think You Can Dance” and her time on “Dancing with the Stars,” is opening up about these painful experiences as part of her upcoming memoir.

The process of writing the memoir has been a deeply emotional journey for Allison Holker, forcing her to confront not only her past struggles within the dance community, but also the unimaginable grief of losing her husband, Stephen “tWitch” Boss.

Aside from her relationship with Boss, Holker is delving into the broader challenges she faced, both personally and professionally.

“I had experienced my first time really feeling like I’d been taken advantage of,” Holker said on a recent episode of “The Jamie Kern Lima Show” podcast when speaking on the alleged abuse she experienced at the age of 17. “I had some older man really take advantage of the vulnerability that women go through, especially in the dance community.”

Holker admitted that she grappled with feelings of self-blame during that time, sharing, “Where we look up to our teachers and we just trust them, and dance can be very physical. It can be very sexual, even at a young age.”

“It tore me apart for a lot of years. I felt like it was my fault because how could it have gotten to that place? I must have done something wrong and I felt so much shame in who I was,” she added.

Holker revealed that it took her “many years” to process and heal from the trauma.

“I was so embarrassed. To this day, it’s one of those things. Man, if I would have just spoken out for myself, maybe I could have built myself back up and helped other young girls, too, to not let that happen,” she said. “I’m proud of myself now.”

Holker noted that becoming a mother changed the way she viewed the past. “I blamed myself for years, for myself when I had my daughter,” the dancer, who shared son Maddox, 8, and daughters Weslie, 16, and Zaia, 5, with late husband Stephen “tWitch” Boss added. “I realized that I need to build her up to like if anything ever happened to her.”

By addressing the abuse she endured as a teenager, Holker is aiming to bring attention to the often-hidden issues within the dance industry and inspire others who may have faced similar hardships.

Holker is preparing to release her memoir, “This Far: My Story of Love, Loss, and Embracing the Light,” on February 8. The book, which Holker described as deeply personal, chronicles her journey through grief following the death of her husband, Stephen “tWitch” Boss, while aiming to provide a message of hope and resilience for others facing similar struggles.

In a recent interview with PEOPLE Magazine, Holker revealed that she had been working on the memoir for years but paused the project after Boss’s tragic death in December 2022. Now, she feels ready to share her story, including intimate details about Boss’s life and mental health struggles.

However, this decision has sparked controversy, particularly from Boss’s extended family.

Darielle, Boss’s cousin, took to X (formerly Twitter) to voice her anger, accusing Holker of disrespecting the family. “I’m so tired of keeping my f-cking mouth shut, bro. You did our family so mf dirty,” Darielle wrote.

In a follow-up post, Darielle alleged that Holker required Boss’s family to sign non-disclosure agreements (NDAs) to attend his funeral and has since prevented them from seeing his children.

“Yeah idgaf about an NDA. This crazy woman made me and his actual family sign an NDA just to even attend the funeral,” she said. “She’s been trying to tarnish his legacy and refuses to let the Boss family see the children. Only to exploit and LIE on my cousin. Hell no.”

“To fans of Stephen and our family and friends, I want to be clear that my only intention in writing the book is to share my own story as well as part of my life with Stephen to help other people,” she wrote in a lengthy letter shared on her Instagram Stories. “I hope that by sharing our full story maybe I can help someone else who might see themselves or a loved one in Stephen. In sharing I hope that maybe they can catch some [of] the red flags that I missed before it’s too late.”